It all started about four years ago when I met this guy...
He always tried to get my attention when he'd see me, or send a message through a friend that he liked me. I finally gave in and decided to give him a chance. Everything was going smoothly, you could even say it was love at first sight. The crazy thing is we were neighbors for 5 years prior to us dating, and I had never looked at him in that way before...A month passed by and he got into some trouble and went to jail. Not knowing the circumstances of the situation, I promised to stand by him, you know, hold him down...I loved that man...While waiting on sentencing, I'm praying to God that he's able to come home to his family, plus this was around the holidays so of course we wanted him home. After hours of waiting, the judge finally came out and there goes the verdict...
I could have died. I mean my heart literally dropped. His mom said he'd only have to do 9 out of the 12, but okay...what a big difference. I told him that I'd always be there whenever he needs me, and that I'll be there when he gets released in 9 years. Not to mention, we had only been dating a month before he got locked up.
The years start passing...I'm okay. We're okay. He always found a way to make me feel like the queen that I am even from behind bars. I love this man. Our bond grew deeper and deeper every month. Every year. I've never missed a phone call. Never missed a visit. I would drive 10 hours to see the man I loved so much. I didn't care how long the drive was, I just knew I wanted to see my man.
After a while things started changing. He wouldn't call for 4-5 days, and it wasn't like him. So I just prayed on it and put it all in God's hands. Immediately I did start seeing changes, but not in him, in me. God did some rearranging in my life. My attitude was different. My smile was growing bigger. People started to tell me I was glowing...Hmmmmm...I didn't mind it though. After 4 1/2 years, this guy comes along and sweeps me off my feet. It was just unimaginable. We would go on dates, do things I've never done in my life...It was amazing. He keeps me with a smile on my face from the time I open my eyes until it's time for bed. He had to be heaven sent...So yes I've caught some feelings for him and vice versa. But I'm still in love with the man that's incarcerated! Is that possible? This new guy does any and everything in his power to make sure my kids and I are okay. He's so in love...I didn't mean for it to go this far because I'm still in love...New guy tells me he doesn't want us to end any time soon. So in my mind I'm like wtf do I do?...
- Submitted by Brynetta
I don’t forgive him. Not yet.
Bodies moving in sync
You can't come in here...
There was no glory in side-chicking or deception, only pain and illusion.
I love him for making me feel loved.
6 years, 2 kids, countless jail/prison stays, and the abuse...
In the loneliest hour my thoughts seem to always go back to you.
It's time for "the talk."
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